he drinks a lot: i just read so much into everything because it doesn't happen to me very often
shimd0g: it = pursued by randoms?
he drinks a lot: yeah, i guess
he drinks a lot: well, randoms that i might be interested in
he drinks a lot: i mean, i have asians after my ass every day
he drinks a lot: but i'm not really looking for a relationship in manila
shimd0g: lol
shimd0g: why not
he drinks a lot: hmm... the job market there is so unstable
shimd0g: u could be on kathy lee's assembly line
he drinks a lot: i'm too old
first things first -
he drinks a lot: i just read so much into everything because it doesn't happen to me very often
shimd0g: it = pursued by randoms?
he drinks a lot: yeah, i guess
he drinks a lot: well, randoms that i might be interested in
i have been thinking over the stuff that's been going on the last couple of days or weeks. i think i've made such a big deal about something really insignificant. i apologize for that. like i said, i read so much more intent into things than is really there becaue i'm so unfamiliar with that happening. i get really excited and anxious and happy and kinda stupid when it does happen, and that can make you think and see and hear things that aren't real. any time i think someone might be slightly interested in me and i might be interested back, i totally become, for lack of a better word, love-retarded.
it's a very specific form of retardation.
next -
he drinks a lot: i mean, i have asians after my ass every day
he drinks a lot: but i'm not really looking for a relationship in manila
apparently, all my problems would be solved if i moved to asia. everyday, i log into friendster and have new messages from people in manila, beijing, kyoto, etc., etc. all these people want to be my friend, but unfortunately for them, i'm not very good at the whole penpal/long distance thing. i asked around about my asian appeal, and a friend of mine pointed out that i'm very western (well, western-looking at least). now, i don't look like a cowboy or anything, clearly, but i guess i am very ameropean in appearance. this is very big in asia, or so i am told. my friend suggested i move to japan where upon disembarking my plane i would be offered a record deal singing japanese pop songs that have lyrics like "elvis convertible, blue jeans on fire". i would be an instant sensation and make millions and millions of yen. i'm currently pricing flights to tokyo.
furthermore -
shimd0g: why not
he drinks a lot: hmm... the job market there is so unstable
shimd0g: u could be on kathy lee's assembly line
he drinks a lot: i'm too old
tonight, i realized just how close graduation is, and i got strangely sad. i've been so ready to leave school, that i forgot i'm leaving school. i went to dinner with 2 coworkers and our replacements for next year. we were talking about their responsibilities, and it suddenly hit me that soon enough those wouldn't be mine anymore. my job would be someone else's. this same thing applied to a lot of other things, too. my apartment would be someone else's. i won't live there anymore or ever again. my friends that will still be here would be someone else's as well. all the time we spent together would be filled in by someone else. i'm going to miss so much of what i had here. i didn't have that same feeling when i left home to come here. leaving home for college was a relief. sure, i miss my family, but i (and i hate saying this) never really missed my friends or school or job that i had there. i was ready to leave those things behind. i'm not really ready to leave behind the things i have here. luckily, i won't be leaving right away. for the first time in a long time, i was actually really happy that i didn't have a job yet.
the resumes, however, are still flying out at a rapid pace.
molly's p.s.- yesterday, i saw mean girls. now, i'm sure you don't really know what that is, as you're in italy, but all you need to know is that lindsay lohan is in it. now, you know how long i've loved her. forever. i must admit, though, that recently my love has mutated into a slightly unhealthy obsession. i've read almost every inch of her official website and am surely soon to move onto fansites. www.llrocks.com has become an integral part of my daily life, and it hasn't been updated in months. the highlight of my day was discovering that lindsay was born several years and one day after me. i'm july 1, and she's july 2. one day, she will be my celebrity best friend. right after i make it big in japan.
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